Guilt and Frustration

I feel guilty, frustrated, and relieved. Why? My hubby is out of town for three months and I have an awesome babysitter. Yes, I can take care of my beautiful girls, but I need a break. My stress level goes way down with help. My sassy girl and I butt heads a lot. She is going through this phase of not listening. Maybe it's because she is 4 years old. Maybe it's because she is bored. She does better when she has gone to preschool. On the days she doesn't have school, she acts out more. I try to give her as much attention as I can, but I have an outgoing 13 month old. Our house is taken over by toys and laundry is never finished. Although, my friends think our house is clean...Super Clean :)! I find it funny. I look around and question. It's not asian clean, but it's under control. I am not a Super Mom, nor do I plan to be. It's exhausting to think about it. Damn you PINTEREST and all your kids craftiness. I can't even do half of what is on my list. Again, I have a babysitter to help me be a better mom to my kids. I am still around in the house, but she is there to give my sassy girl more attention. Once hubby is back (not flying back and fourth), life will resume. Until then, this mama needs an extra hand.