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Monday, May 12, 2008

My horrible dream...

I hope I do not have to relive this nightmare. I had this horrible dream one morning about my daughter Mika. It's so hard for me to type this out w/o crying, but I feel that it might help get through the day. My dream started out pretty normal. My daughter Mika is 7 months old, but in my dream she was about 2 years old...maybe slightly younger. Anyway, she was playing on the floor with her toys and all of a sudden she swallowed this object. The object was pretty big, but somehow it managed to fit in her mouth. Well, her muscles in her mouth/throat relaxed and it went down her throat. I turned around b/c I heard her gasp for air. She was crying, but no noise was coming out of her. I saw the object lodged in her throat...sort of like the movie "Jawbreaker"...I paniced and called 911. I also open up the front door to yell for help. I called my husband, but I couldn't speak. So he knew something was wrong and left to go to the hospital. My daughter and I arrived at the hospital and was immediately seen by a doctor. He checked her over and was ready to call a surgeon. He check her heart beat and it was slipping. My daughter turned her head to look towards me with her big, blue, bubble eyes...The look of pain and "help me mamma" woke me up in tears. All I remember was holding her and saying "I love you Mika, please don't leave me". This is soooo hard for me to type this out and read it....anyway, I woke my ass up b/c I didn't want to know what was about to happen. I woke up in tears and ran to my sleeping daughter...she was sleeping peacefully. When she woke up, she was all smiles. For those who know me...my dreams are pretty vivid and accurate (most of the time)...This dream made me realize that I need to watch her more. She loves to put things in her mouth...fist, passy, etc...I hope no one has to ever go through this...