FML!!!!!!!!!!!

FML and Beyond!!!!!

Hubby came home on Thursday with some interesting news about work. I looked at him and said "WTF, where are we moving to now?" He said he was offered to go to San Antonio to clean up someone's sht for a few months. I first told him that I don't want to move! San Antonio of all places!!! I do not like south Texas! I grew up in Houston and I wasn't crazy about it. When we lived in Austin, San Antonio would come up in conversation...The first thing that came out of my mouth was "We are not movng to San Antonio"...Now, the company is offering us a lot of money if we decide to move down there...FML! The money is good, but it's not about the money! It's about our happiness as a family. The one thing that blows about this is that we were giving 24 hours to decide that. Even though hubby came home to "discuss" our options, I believe his mind was already made up. He claims that he is bored and he's depressed b/c he doesn't have an outlet and friends! That is not my fault! I am not going to hold his hand to make friends. He doesn't always make the best choice in friends...His one friend that use to live in Indiana is currently in San Antonio! That is just f'n great! His friend seems nice, but he is young. I don't really trust him and I feel that he is hiding something! I think it is ok if hubby goes down there to clean up. I think it's a BAD idea to move down there. I do not feel right about it. I think something bad is going to happen. I wish I could explain why, but I can't. I think this could challenge our marriage. I think hubby wishes I can turn off my feelings and get over this. I am not going to do that. I am tired of "sucking it up". I shouldn't have too. I have supported every decision we have made when it comes to our future. Moving up to Indiana has been the best decision we have ever made. I just wish hubby can see that! I think he needs a hobby and prof. help about his depression! Hubby is going to have to deal with my crappy attitude! If I have to suffer, so does he! He is going to have to deal with my emotions. I may come to terms with this or not. I do believe something better will come along if he is patient. I truly wish I can stay here until the contract is over with! Unfortunately, I can't! I love my husband very much and he knows that! I do want him to succeed, but not take the first opportunity b/c he's bored! This is not how we do things!